hear me out now

2004-01-18T07:46:00.000-08:00

Enuice, you hav been an encouragement to me since Pri 5/6 when i first came in.. I was scared tat noone would welcome me.. But u were e gal who actually came up to me n showed me around, introuducing all ur frenz to me.. Till nw, i still admire n love ur ability of making ppl feel comfortable.. Eunice, always hav confidence in urself n remember tat u r special in God's eyes.. Juz as wat we've learnt, God gave us different gifts n i believe u would sure to be able to make full use of them.. So keep it up ya? Continue serving Him.. Hope tat i can always be an encouragement to u too.. Love ya!

2004-01-12T07:03:00.000-08:00

Hmm, after school today, went to Ryan's house wit Eileen. Daryl, Isaac n Shane were there too.. Well, thank God for letting me know Ryan.. He's really funny! Stupid guy! Oh, i took lots pics wit Daryl n Ryan's camera.. Went to meet Mildred after tat, did a bit of shopping.. Nt going to school tml.. Haha.. Me going to SIR to get my passport n IC done.. ( Skip PE n Assembly) Haha..

2004-01-09T06:31:00.000-08:00

Had Chinese test today.. Hmm, suppose to go for CNY rehersal but was cancelled last min.. So Jar, Eileen, Peifen, Jocelyn n i went to watch 'School of Rocks'... Quite funny n it really rocks man! Nw den i understand y Alvin love it so much, its simply juz him! Haha.. Had lots fun..

2004-01-08T05:58:00.000-08:00

Today, school as usual.. Beginning to understand how to enjoy school.. Tat's God! Commit everything in His hands n knowing tat by going to school, study well.. Blah.. R ways to glorify n honour God, so do enjoy! Anyway, went to Tm for Pizza Hut wit Vel, Jar, Eileen, Pei fen.. Its been such long time since we gathered.. Had lots of fun.. Hmm, but we embarassed ourslves.. Haha.. We were watching Ju-on outside a VCD shop.. N there was tis scene of the mother appearing under the chair.. I got frightened n screamed (as usual -_-'') N my friends screamed too.. Everyone around us were staring at us as if we were mad.. Oh no! Felt like a fool.. So we ran all the way to Tm.. Haha.. While eating, Jar acted like a retarded as usual.. Haha.. -_-'' Later on, Ber n i went to catch Lord of the Rings.. Not bad.. After the show, we went to eat Jap food.. Tell u ar, the Jap restaurant on the 4th floor really sucks man! As i had my lunch late, i was damn full.. But tat black man insist on ordering something for me.. Well, end up he has finish it for me.. Haha.. :p Oh yah! N i tried salmon.. I've nv tried cos its lik.. Eating raw food.. Eeee~ Again, he forced me to.. -_-'' Had a really fun day! =) Oh no! There's Chinese test tml.. Got to 'study' Haha.. Update another time! Btw, Eliza, miss ya!! Muacks! =)

2003-12-16T09:54:00.000-08:00

Oh yah.. Mil is flying off tml wit her sis to Thailand, visit her mom.. Hmm, goona miss u dear.. Hav fun! Muacks!

2003-12-16T09:41:00.000-08:00

Oh yah! Gonna scan some pics tml.. Haha.. And put them in my blog... Yeah! Finally~

2003-12-16T09:40:00.000-08:00

New Record: Slept at 7.30am wit Jenn!! Haha.. Hmm, woke up at 4pm today.. Act wanted to sleep more, but got to wake up for carolling.. *YaWn* Hmm, finally done wit my friendster yesterday~ -_-~ Had carolling today, reached abt 5pm to pract for the item.. After dinner, we started our pract.. While practing, i received a call frm my dad, saying tat my grandma is sick again so got me to giv her a call.. Cried while talking to her, really miss her.. Luckily, Nat came round to comfort me.. Felt much better after crying! Thanks Nat! Hmm, and now~ Got to really Thank MARCUS.. Hahaha.. Who put me together wit Isaac for a duet.. *Punch* And Nat, Shane, Gabby and more~ were watching our "show", and xing zai le huo! 0_0!! But afterall, its for Christmas.. So Isaac, gam ba teh! :p
Going out wit Jenn tml.. Going to pack my stuff later for camp..

2003-12-12T11:05:00.000-08:00

Hmm, today~ Went out wit Jenn.. She came over my house to see my baby photos and try some Taiwan food i brought back.. Abt 6.30pm, we set off to Ming Ge Xin Cen Ting in Chinatown.. Saw James at Doby Ghaut.. Anyway, we reach there abt 8.15pm and stayed till 10.30pm.. They can sing really well.. Lots of chatting, laughing and Fun~
Tml~ There's worship pract at 6.30pm..
Read abt Eliza on Nat's blog.. Oh~ Lucky~ But i'm going to be as lucky soon~

2003-12-09T10:41:00.000-08:00

Wow! Din update tis for quite some time already.. Went to celebrate Alvin's birthday yest wit Mil, Jenn and Jek.. Went o K box den Tam.. Took pic wit Jenn!
Woke up at 6pm today and went for charolling pract..
Nat is in Malaysia... Oh~..

2003-11-11T04:45:00.000-08:00

Ok~ Finally, i'm leaving tml.. Well, i'm excited...Really exited! But goona miss all of you.. Actually, i kinda dun wish to come back.. There's so much things that i wish to let go and forget here.. Hope that these 2 weeks, i can straighten out my tots and make some big and painful decisions.. Well, luck to whoever having exam.. And to those who can't see me off tml.. Dearies, its okay.. I know that ur r busy ppl.. Well, i dun really wish ur to sent me off anyway, dun wanna let ur see my tears~ Hahha.. Okay~ Muacks!

2003-11-07T06:08:00.000-08:00

Sian.. Stayed at home the whole day.. -_-'' Watched 'Qing sheng sheng, Yu mong mong', Taiwan show.. Like the Princess Huan Zhu.. Haha.. Well, the travel agent called and said that there's no seats on the 26th or 27th and even 28th, so we're on waiting list.. Haiz.. I'm kinda excited to go back to visit my relatives and my childhood frenz.. But also want to come back in time for my bbq and the date with Jac, Eliza, Shane, Nat, Jar and Des.. Gonna miss all of you..

2003-11-03T23:08:00.000-08:00

Went out with Jar Jar, Desmond, Shane, Meixi, Eliza, Marie, Sam, Shel, Isaac and Nat on Sunday. After lunch, Isaac, Shel, Marie and Sam left.. Later on, Eliza went home too.. Eliza was in foul mood.. Well, Eliza, a word of advice.. Let him go.. Since he dun feel the same way as you do.. And i think he is the selfish chap.. Writing ur name and say those hurtful things when he knows tt ppl will read it.. He dun even hav the courage to speak infront of you.. You deserve a better one.. Continueing.. It was raining.. I used my sweater to cover Meixi and we ran all the way to the bus stop from downtown.. No! We screamed all the way.. Haha.. In Tm, we watched Britney's concert and were busy commenting her figure.." She's too fat!" Haha.. Without realising that the sales were staring at us.. Oh yah! And there was this mad woman.. With heavy make up, walking round and round the shop.. Mad! Haha.. Can u believe? Shane, Jar and Nat actually went to "snatch" balloon with the kids.. We waited there for Very long, juz to get pathetic balloon.. Haiz... Haha.. Had a enjoyable time with them after all..
Had a great time yesterday!! Went out with Mil and Wan you.. Talked lot of rubbish.. And knowing lots of truth.. Hmm, its been a long time since i catch up with Wan you..

2003-10-22T08:17:00.000-07:00

Came back for my camp.. Wow! Damn tiring! Suffered really lots.. Hmm, din go to school today, not planning to go tml either.. Haha.. Hey Nat, Eliza, Shane, Des, Jar Jar, We can start planning for outing!!! Dun worry too much abt ur result ya, anyway wat's done cannot be undone.. Well, take care.. Eliza, really hope i'll be able to stay to send u off..

2003-10-22T08:13:00.000-07:00

Dear Eliza,
Heard abt ur grandma.. Dun be too sad ya.. At least u know she's safe in Lord's arm.. We'll always be by ur side.. Even u r in Australia.. We'll keep her in our prayer ya.. Dun say tt ur family doesn't love you, I belive somehow they do ya.. Glad that u enjoyed urself last Sun, really hope to be able to celebrate ur birthday every year!
Lots of Love,
Vivian

2003-10-10T06:14:00.000-07:00

Hmm, Juz took out my contacts.. My eyes are so tiring..
Arr.. I've got Maths remedial at 7.30am tml!!! And POA at 10.15am.. Arr.. But guess wat! Haha... Going to Mildred house with Jenn tml, to study.. ?? Haha.. We are attending Richardo's 21th birthday party tml.. Keke.. Its a uniform party.. Take pics!!
Got to study later.. There's still paper on Mon.. Chem and POA paper 2..
Btw, my dad left for Shanghai le.. Hmm, Nat.. I've got something to tell you.. I might still be going to Shanghai.. Sorry~

2003-10-10T05:47:00.000-07:00

Juz got home.. So tired.. Finally its weekend! REST.. Had been so stressful and bad for me these few days.. Starting to accept it..
Was in school, suppose to hav Council Sudy Time but I'm not in the mood to study.. Haha.. So Mildred, Jenneifer, May , Annice and me started 'chatting'.. Opps! Its gossiping actually.. Haha.. We are like 5 bitches, sitting at the study area, gossiping excitedly.. Haha..There were not much ppl left.. Somehow, we started talking abt haunted places in school.. Suddenly, May said that she dun feel comfortable sitting there and i screamed.. Haha.. Juz in case ur dun know, I can scream damn loud.. Haha.. They got scared by me and all of us ran away. We decided to shift to another place and continuing bitching.. Haha.. We called each other bitch. Mildred is the "ultimate bitch" and we are "potential bitches".. Haha.. Know it sounds quite lame.. Haha.. We left the school abt 6pm and were still gossiping at the bus stop.. Had such fun time!
After they board the bus, i accompanied Mildred to mai cai for his loving husband, Alvin.. She invited him over for dinner.. Wonder wat they gonna do.. Haha.. But she's so sweet rite!.. On our way, we chatted and i told her lots of stuff.. And she reminded me that wo bu shi mei you ren chui, why muz i let myself suffer with a guy who dun feel the same.. Isn't she rite?! Haha..
He said that he's gonna send me a mail and explain everything.. Hope everything would turn out fine.. But will we still be the same?
Nat," I'm fine.. Dun need to worry abt me.. Dun really need to ask abt it ya.. Thanks anyway. Muacks!"
Well, I'm still so young, I should not let myself be tied with stuff like tt, especially during exam time.. But truely, this period of time allows to really put my trust in God. Pray and really be faithful.. I really feel better ad able to concentrate doing my paper.. Thank Lord.. Muacks! Keke..
Had my Maths paper.. Quite surprising, I tot its goona be damn difficult but it turn out to be fine.. Social Studies was alright, tested on September 11th for source based.. Kev, think i'll pass, won't let you down.. Thanks for teaching us the methods to study..

2003-10-09T09:04:00.000-07:00

Juz finished studying my Social Studies.. Hmm, gonna be a long day tml.. My stupid Maths paper is 2 hours!! Hate it! And everything will only end at 12pm.. Agh!! But well, time for a short break.. Its weekend!! Yeah!

2003-10-08T07:54:00.000-07:00

HOW DO I LIVE
Trisha Yearwood
Con Air

How Do I
Get through one night without you?
If i had to live without you
what kind of life would that be?
Oh now
I need you in my arms need you to hold
You're my world my heart my soul
If you ever leave
baby you would take away everything good in my life.

Without you
There'd be no sun in my sky
There would be no love in my life
There'd be no world left for me.
And I
Baby i don't know what i would do,
I'd be lost if i lost you,
If you ever leave,
Baby you would take away everything real in my life,
And tell me now,
How do i leave without you?
I want to know,
How do i breathe without you?
If you ever go,
How do i ever, ever survive?
How do I, how do i, oh how do i live?

If you ever leave,
Baby you would take away eveything,
I need you with me,
Baby 'cause you know that you're everything,
good in my life.
And tell me now,
Hoe do I live wothout you,
I want to know,
How do I breathe without you?
If you ever go,
How do I ever, ever survive?
How do I, how do I, oh how do I live?
How do i live without you baby

2003-09-16T09:33:00.000-07:00

Juz dun understand why ppl are quarreling over all these, when she's already dead.. Haiz..

2003-09-16T09:31:00.000-07:00

So tired.. Got to complete my D&T folio.. Haiz.. Was looking through my D&T textbook when i found Jin Jin's little note to me," Vivian, thanks for your book".. Suddenly, the memories juz came back.. Imagining her jumping around.. Outside my class,borrowing POA, D&T textbook.. Haiz.. Hmmm.. The note will be part of my memories of her..

2003-09-12T07:03:00.000-07:00

Hmmm.. Still can't seemed to get over her death.. Many a times, sentences and words still comes back," We tried to resusciate her but failed"," Our fellow student, Jin Jin had passed away", "We'll definitely miss her..".. How she died.. Sometimes, you will only learn ur lesson when something serious happened.. After her death, i then realised that i've been quarreling with my friends, it's been a long time since i said how important they are to me.. I dunno why things turn out this way.. Haiz.. Jin Jin, i miss you..

2003-09-09T02:35:00.000-07:00

On Monday, we gathered in school at 2.30pm to attened her 'memorial service'(funeral).. When we entered the 'hall', her family and relatives were crying.. We stood up and watched 'her' been carried in.. It was juz so heart-brokening.. The two pastors started talking(Chinese and Enlgish).. We sang some hymns.. But some of us burst out luffing b'cos the two pastors totally juz sang out of tune.. Suddenly, her mum started crying and said," My daugther is nt a sinner. she din commit any sin, she din deserve this!"(In chinese). Anyway, the last part of the ceremony was to pay our last respect to her.. We walked around her coffin and put a little white flower in.. We started crying again.. The most painful part came.. Cremation.. Around 20 of us were there.. I was leaning against the glass wall at first.. When her coffin was 'lifted' up, all of us started screaming.. When the workers gave the final push.. i broke down.. Compeltely lying on the floor.. My friend was holding on to me.. Everyone was crying bitterly.. they kneeled down and continue shouting for her name.. Few of my teachers and friends carried me out..

2003-09-09T02:10:00.000-07:00

Hmmm.. Wanted to update my blog few days ago.. But i din know wat to say.. Din wan to do anything or read anything regarding her.. My friend passed away.. It was sudden and shocking to everyone... Till now, i still coudn't accept wat has happened.. Not been sleeping and eating well these few days.. All my mind was filled with,'Jin Jin.. Jin Jin.. why muz it be you.. Jin Jin..'
On Sun, we gathered in school at abt 1.30pm, there were more than 200 ppl.. The wake was held at Blk 147.. We walked one round around her coffin.. I felt so weak... She was dresed in her choir gown(though she din like tt gown), her council tie, her favourite pink piggy, every single letter and presents were around her.. But she juz din look happy to me.. We cried.. I was frightened by her face.. So bloated and scary.. Bruises was all over her face.. Her hands were bandaged(were covered by long gloves).. The news reported that her left arm was crushed under the car.. How sad.. her favourite sport was cycling.. Hiaz.. News, papers, are all her news.. Everything juz seemed so unreal.. Juz can't accept that my friend would leave me one day(at least nt at this age..)..

2003-09-03T07:48:00.000-07:00

Sob.. So sad.. Was looking forward to the outing with Kev and all of you.. Hmmm... But gald ur had fun!! Eileen, stop boasting to me!! Haha.. Miz ur so much.. Well, nt cuming this Sun also.. CAMP!! Hate it.. Goona miss so much fun...

Nat: Dun complain.. Haha.. Sorry, goona miss church again.. Catch up with you again! Muacks!

Eliza: Wow! Wan to take a look at ur sexy~ underwear you'vr got for urself (to attract boys?!)Haha..

Shane: Sorry, you've got to do library duty alone.. Heard that ur went to arcarde and Nat was forced to play DDR.. Haha.. Glad tt i didn't go or i would hav embarassed myself.. Haha

Shane probably had already forgotten abt me.. So far, only talked to Nat, Eliza and Eileen.. You? Oh yah.. you've got ur part-time and full time girlfriends to attend to, Elaine and Shu ling.. Oh, No! you would always remember talking abt a China gal with plat, sitting behind her husband..
Me: lao gong, kan man yi dian!
Rite? Haha..

2003-08-18T00:56:00.000-07:00

Wow! This is damn exciting! I'm in my friends house now.. Well, we are actually here for our SS project but.. Do u think we'll do it? Haha.. (Like Duh!) That me introuduce my friend first. He's Yiliang, 14++ years old. Actually, he's nt favoured by everyone, he's kinda of 'abnormal'.. I got to really know him when i was arranged to sit beside him.. I realised that he's kind-hearted and quite'poor thing', he's the only child but he's staying in a BIG mansion! ( I guess he muz be really lonely). I did a really bad thing today.. The 5 of us were suppose to go to his house first.. He volunteered to pay for the taxi fare but instead he ran home.. B4 we could say anything, he had already started running.. I cried in the taxi.. Felt really guilty... I prayed on the way, hoping he's alright, i regretted so much... for everything.. Rite now, i'm in his house! Everyone's playing, there's altogether 9 of us here.. (but only Cats, Qiao Lin and me.. 3 gals) Having lots of fun!!! Oh no! The burglar alarm juz went off! Getting into dead shit! Got to go now! Alrite, Bye bye for now...

2003-08-12T03:20:00.000-07:00

Hiz everyone! Finally got my blog done! Thanks to Shane and Nat.. Thanks.. Muacks! Well, its kinda weird to write my diary here.. Cos you nv know how Many ppl actually read it.. Sounds scary.. Haha.. Anyway, ta ta for now!